emo-ing this holiday..

what is this?

dun have the mood to do everything as mayb have some 'MISUNDERSTANDING'..i dun really know what they heard from him..but i know what myself heard of it..things made me feel so so frustrated...haiz..


well, not a successful plan as in some 'MISUNDERSTANDING' that i mention above..feel so so sad bout it..im so so pissed off..
to say the truth, im not really enjoying..im not really happy with it..i feel so so angry and i dunno how to expressed out but i ask myself to calm down and give them a smile...i know is a fake smile...

did i do something wrong makes u feel that im the bad one?i did think for u but how about others?do they really think for u?they can jus ignore u if u r not there...but, i didnt..i really didnt..im so so down knowing that u r not with us...haiz..even my tears drop down..=(

i hate myself..
im such a failure..
im useless..

thats true..
im always fails to do something..
im always fails to make people around me happy..
haiz..

i did think of suicide~

im sorry if i make u unhappy~
i dunno what u had heard from them~
but i really thinks of u~
i miss u~
i love u~