what a day

skip my brunch.

went to meet up him for shopping.

not much to buy.

just 4 clothes and a short pants for himself.

tears burst out right after he asked me why im so moody.

i dont how to answer him so i cried.

i did ask myself not to cry.

but to control.

seems like i cant control myself to cry at that time.

btw, on the way to meet him my car temperature rises.

wholly shit cause i didnt even check before i start my journey.

im being so dumb.

im worry that i was almost late to meet him up.

everything just forgotten.

haiz.

after all, my car is already ok after refill the water til full full full.

i mean FULL.

everything goes well when im on my way back home.

it rains heavily and i cant hardly see the road and the cars outside.

im scare and worry that time.

but luckily i reached home safely.

if not i wont be blogging here XD

feel so uneasy right after i hit by the heavy rain.

feel so so cold whenever im at the hottest place.

is this the symptom of getting sick?

please dont on the PT week la.

p/s : no pictures taken.

p/s : no matter what happens, you still got me (:

arsenal vs manchester united later at 12am.

go Gunners go !!

sorry for not telling you everything.

just that i dont know how to say.

i wont make you so worry le.

hope you'll be happy soon.

and i wont give up on making you happy.

dont doubt on my love towards you.

i love you, wayne.

Handsome.

im gonna welcome my greeny to the family.

after so long, finally i get a brand new handphone three days ago.

at first i dunno what to name him.

so i name him greeny.

i know its kinda weird when it sounds greeny.

thats what i can think bout that time.

cause it is in green colour.

i have no idea.

so name it greeny.

after three days, i finally think a name suitable for him.

i name him HANDSOME.

sounds cool right. =x

i love Handsome so much

because he is in green in colour.

kinda love the keypad

i want to see wayne tomorrow.

hopefully my wish comes true.

i love you, wayne

random

i have done my part.

comfort you.

make yo happy.

didnt show up my moody feeling.

i stil cant make you happy.

i know im not a perfect girlfriend.

i seldom do what a girlfriend's job.

but i already try my very best.

when you are down, i try to make you happy.

but how you treat me?

you should know.

i seldom show up my unhappy face to you.

cause i dont want you to unhappy also.

this is why i always smile to you when im with you.

i know im not always beside you when you need me.

so do you.

i just want you to accompany me more often.

our time clash like shit.

hardly meet up.

you tot im happy like dat?

im not happy at all.

what can i do is just dont show up my unhappiness face to you.

i want you to be happy.

thats what i wish.

no matter how.

im always love you.

forever.

wayne, i love you.

emo again~

been emo for very long time already.

guess everyone knows that. although i didnt show up to you all.

i dont really know what im emo-ing for.

some random things i think.

you all should know who i am.

why didnt i show up.

why didnt i speak out.

why didnt i share.

this is because i am ME.

a girl who likes to keep everything to herself.

a girl who seldom share her problems.

a girl who didnt talk much.

i feel so lonely everytime.

even im with my friends but i still feel im alone.

just like no one is around me.

just only me, myself.

i can feel the empty spaces.

i can feel the echos in the empty place when i start to speak.

there is just no one and is only ME.

im crying while typing this post.

no one understand me well even my love one doesnt.

i just want you to comfort me when im down.

but in the end im the one who comfort you.

i need you when im down.

and you dont even care.

i just need you to accompany me more often.

where are you?

haiz.

emo

im so so emo this few days.

and more emos are coming

haiz~

what i can do now is just :

ALWAYS SMILE NO MATTER HOW BROKEN I AM '(:'

mask is put on 24 hours no matter where i am~

Lampe Berger Show (160110)

yesterday was the first time i perform for my teacher's show.

is Lampe Burger Show at KLCC convention centre.

actually i have no idea what that function about until my friend told me it was the something then only i know..im so so blur..XDXD

been for rehersal for 2 days before the show on saturday..first time perform have to remember 4 different types of steps..

on the first day of rehersal, at first i really cant handle it, but after while i manage to remember some of the steps..keep practice and practice until i remember the steps..on the first day im kinda

blur with the steps and im really tired that day..before that had long day class, then straight to ballet class, after that straight to rehersal with my tired look..lol

on the second day of rehersal, i manage to remember all the steps but somehow i still forget a little of the steps..=/ keep practice and practice and practice then went back lor..

the next day is the performance day..the event starts at 6pm..in the morning, i had modern dance class..after that, stay at studio to practice again..then, at 2 something everyone get ready to klcc already..reached there around 3 something..on the way there, we saw an accident..the car terbalik and saw a baby head bleeding like shit..pity pity..

saw karen kong there when having rehersal..she is pretty but short..almost same height as me or shorter than me..lolx

after that, prepare for the event already..

the first 2 dance is ballet one..we walk walk around the foyer with everyone there..we weill dance when the music starts..is just randomly..XDXD..kinda exciting and nervous..we wore like fairy but too bad..didnt take any pictures because everyone were busying preparing for themselves..

after that, change costume to become a musketeer..XDXD..kinda cool with it..but too bad didnt take pictures of it also..sob*

wearing that to guide the VIPs to the stage..fuyoh..lolx

next, rushing to changing room to change to another costume..like the magician wear..but all white in colour..cool..we dance broadway for the opening...kinda nervous cause need to dance wearing high heel..first time for me..i scare i will fall scare i will twist my leg scare this scare that..lolx...

after that, rush to changing room again to change the maid costume as shown below..everyone thinks i went for maid job...lolx..its a nice costume but too short..sexy..wiu wit ^^

when the audience starts to had their meals, we dance be our guest..is something bout food..we hold the utensils things when we dance..quite funXDXD

everything goes smoothly and it ends at 830pm..we camwhore there as usual...hehe..after that went back by train lor..thats all forr now..im kinda lazy to blog eh...lolx

ups and downs always come to us.

i hope we can hardly get through it.

no matter what happens, i really love you.

IRIS~

im done with IRIS, the korean drama.

its great.

i would rate this as 9/10.

all my friends, should watch this wey.

im introducing to all of you.

you wont regret watching it.

one of my friend said it is awesome. (:

害怕

突然间觉得很害怕

害怕会失去了一些

我不敢想象的事

我很想有哪个勇气去面对

可是我却不敢去面对

我不想失去你~

我不是你想象的那么勇敢

tears

feel like CRYING again.

sien lar.

haiz~

tired

im tired.

im tired of everything.

i really need REST.

much much REST.

i dont know what have i been lately.

kinda moody and tears drop down easily.

haiz~

i hate this feeling so so much.

i cant explain this feeling in words.

just feel so so annoying.

arghhh!!!!

who will understand me?

who?

even YOU also dont understand me.

haiz~

im down do you know that?

im down do you feel it?

im down what you do,?

you're doing your own stuff.

sigh~

i feel you are not loving me as much as before ):

i miss the boyfriend so so much~

he didnt know that my mood is kinda down~

haiz~

em.

my mind is so so blank.

i dont know whats wrong with me.

feel kinda down now.

nothing goes into my mind.

my everything is blank.

totally blank. haiz.

i want you to be with me now.

i want to hug you lean on your shoulder now.

what i want now is YOU~

do you know that? ):

IRIS

been addicted to a korea drama lately..

is called IRIS..

i watched it when i was in korea 2 weeks ago..

kinda addicted to it..

i didnt know that im watching the last episode that time..

me and my cousin were waiting to watch again the next day..

keep changing channel to find it but at last dont have..lolx

then only know that was the last episode..haha..

holiday gonna end soon.

taking this few days to watch IRIS as soon as possible..(:

boyfriend coming back soon (:

yay!!!

emo

new year. new life. forget the past. look forward for future.

i knows what i need to forget.

i knows what i need to remember.

hopefully things that are not good i can fully forgotten.

hopefully everything goes smoothly these years.

p/s : sorry for what i had did to you for the past. i know i shouldn't give hope. my bad. sorry. you know who you are.

p/s : not really had a great new year. its been a nightmare for me. hopes everything is fine after today.

p/s : don't ask me why i'm emo and dont ask me who did i mention.

im alright after that. no worries (:

miss boyfriend~

waiting you to come back~

faster come back~

Welcome 2010~

happy new year to everyone~

guess most of you were celebrating new year countdown.

im sure all of you enjoying the celebration.

watched alvin and the chipmunks before new year..is nice..the chipmunks and the chipettes are cute..super cute..i really means cute..

new year comes with new life.

hope everything goes smoothly throughout these years.

hope everyone stay healthy.

look forward.

i miss the boyfriend~

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