Always the one who get BLAME!

Things doesn't goes well these few days.
Something have just stuck in between and make things gone worse.

Im back to the emo world which full of
darkness,
sorrow,
sadness,
loneliness.

I am always the one who get BLAME!
sometimes with reasons and sometimes not.

I always smile with my fake smile.
I always hide all my feelings.
I always pretend nothing happen.
but,
actually i am torture and stress.

Don't you know that i am stress too?
You thought you are the one who only stress?

If you feel relieve after BLAMING me,
just go ahead la !
Haiz =(


You wont know how much tears i cried for you.
You wont know how worry i am when you are sick or anything happens.
Haiz =(


iamwhoiam

sorry =(
i love you just the way you are.
but,
would you love me as who i am ?
i love you, wayne

everyday is gloomy for me

Everyday just not a good day for me i guess.
Things doesn't go as what i wanted it to be.

I dont know whether am i doing the right thing.
I feel so regret after doing that.
It makes me feel even more down when i thinks of it.
I try to sleep just to forget everything,
but,
everything pops out once i close my eyes.
If you are in my situation,
Im sure you will have the same feeling as i am.
Tears eventually flows down to my cheeks.
Everything seems so scary.
Haiz ~
I hate those feelings ):


New semester started 2 weeks already. Everything goes normal with classes for long hours. August coming in two weeks time means result are getting much closer. Im so worry bout my paper although it was easy compared to previous sitting. i can smile for the whole night right after the paper but i still worry about it. I dont have any confident on it. How? :( I must and i want to graduate this semester. I wanna wear the rope so badly and takes lots of pictures with my friends. Hopefully i can.

God bless us~
Buddha bless us ~
Guan Yin Ma bless us~


Why do you still keeping those unrelated things?
Im jealous you know?
Haiz~


p/s : Jealousy do kills me !!
p/s : Im so nervous about my result. Hopefully everyone will pass. *pray hard*
p/s : August is my month but i dont really get excited about it. why??
p/s : My car full of bird's shit. WTF !!! i had clean my car just now.. Wont ever park at that stupid place anymore !!! URGH!!
p/s : Told you, everyday is not my day ):

hubby,
im happy to see you today.
But,
im sad to know things that i dont wanna know ):
i hope nothing is kept between us.
hmm !
i love you, wayne

喜欢装没事 其实最累了

i hate being ignored
i hate being left alone
i hate being abandoned

i hate those who chat half way and go away without telling me
i hate those who reply me LATE
i hate those who dont reply me when i find them
i hate those who went offline without telling me

I HATE EVERYTHING!!!


p/s : everyone have their own limit of patience
p/s : im just being pissed off
p/s : im sorry ):

i dont know why i burst to tears suddenly ):
im sorry ):
im too miss you d hubby~
thats why im like that.
i need to see you everyday.
i love you, wayne